Another torrential day in the land of Fric & Frac.
As of press time, in our last episode Frac had told Fric that she didn’t want to be spending as much time with him anymore. Which, we all knew wasn’t going to stick. And it didn’t.
Last night at around 9pm Pacific Time, Fric asked Frac if he should sleep over that night - since he didn’t have to work the next day. Earlier yesterday Frac had felt a very intense wave of desperate panic, which we will assume was from her overly sensitive and correct intuition, and completely withdrew her pledge to spend less time with Fric. She had missed him so much, that she begged him to concede so they could go back to normal. He was resistant via text message - saying “but you JUST SAID you didn’t want to see me anymore”, etc. Soon after, Frac stopped her pleading, and they resumed a pretty normal text conversation. Then out of nowhere, Fric makes the statement “so should I sleep over tonight?”. Frac immediately responded yes, and got so excited that she jumped up and down. He would be getting off work about an hour and a half later, so Frac picked up her house a bit and got ready to go swoop up Fric at his home, 30 miles away. “YAYYYY” she squealed as she hopped into her car and began toward his house.
When she arrived, typical of Fric - he couldn’t even muster up the excitement to give her a two armed hug. But that didn’t kill Frac’s buzz at all, she was still jumping up and down and playing with his dog. When Fric got all of his stuff together, and they started on the journey back to Frac’s house - she realized that he wasn’t going to shake the gloom & dooms at all. And then somehow, that same conversation started again. She asked him not to text message Franny when they were together, and he willingly agreed - but was doing it in the car that night. So Frac, with her hurt feelings, jump started the conversation. She’s silly that way...always bringing up subjects she doesn’t want to discuss. In this version, Fric was feeling really bad about the situation. He said he is obviously doing something wrong or else he wouldn’t feel so awful about it. And Frac reluctantly agreed: reluctantly, because intuition told her that this was the wrong path to head down. Fric went on to say he is going to have to do something about it soon, choose one of us. Of course, this was the last thing Frac wanted to hear. Because she’s known all along that it’d never be her.
Fast Forward.
The next day they woke up late, Fric who is usually impossible to get out of bed, jumped out of slumber, dying to take Frac’s new motorcycle around the block a few times. And she let him, because she’d give two legs to see him get excitedly happy about something, and in this case - she didn’t have to. She just had to sit by patiently and give him her keys. Easy. After he got back, Frac wanted to go do something. Anything. They often find themselves at Disneyland, so she suggested that - just as a go-to. Fric wasn’t into it, but he surrendered. They had lunch, and went off to the happiest place on Earth. The entire day, the two of them had a hard time getting on the same track. He was grouchy, short, and absent - and she was nagging him to pay attention to her the entire day. But alas, Franny was on the other end of his phone - holding his attention firmly in her palms. Take a minute, reader, to experience the pain of Frac’s heart, that the only boy she has ever loved so much, can’t even pay attention to her when he’s standing right beside her. More than once, Frac had to hold back tears. She’s pathetic that way...always crying.
Fast Forward.
On their way back to Fric's house later that evening, it was very quiet. They barely said anything. Yet Fric was feeling very curious and every time Frac picked up her phone he HAD to know what she was doing with it. Whereas Frac hadn’t asked Fric what he was doing on his once...because she genuinely did not want to know. When Frac did speak to him, Fric completely ignored her. He acknowledged that he was ignoring her, and then continued to do so. Ouch.
Then the last conversation began. It was aggressive. The thing about Frac is that she’s been walking on eggshells for Fric for months now. She is 100% of the time trying really hard to be very good to Fric. She feels like one single slip up will give Fric cause to bounce-out on her again. She tries to be nice and considerate and thoughtful. She tries to make him feel happy and confident and loved. But sometimes, she has shit to say. She often holds it back. Today though, Frac decided to find the most gentle route to say a few harsh words. Frac just wanted to point out that Fric gets the best version of her...while he gives Frac the worst version of himself. Franny gets Fric’s A-game. He is always so sweet and kind and thoughtful and generous with Franny...while Frac gets to live according to his whims. All she wanted to say is that she wishes Fric could give her his attention when they are physically inhabiting the same space, when he's nowhere near her, he can do whatever the fuck he wants - and does. Sadly, as expected, Fric fucking exploded. In a much higher volume and harsher tone than was necessary, he told Frac that he can’t commit to her (we knew this). Fric told Frac that she is perfect in every way, and their connection is amazing and beautiful and she’s everything he wants, the only thing she lacks is that she is not Franny. Frac is not Franny, and therefore, Fric cannot love her. If you’re wondering if that hurt to hear, you can liken it to a punch in the mouth...from Governor Schwarzenegger...in the 80s. At that, Frac couldn’t hold back the dam of tears she’d been saving for the last 30 minutes - and it all came out. Fric yelled that he didn’t want to see Frac anymore and that he needed to put all his energy into Franny. Because he has to know beyond the shadow of a doubt that SHE isn’t what he needs. Fric has to know that Franny and him are dead, before he can move on. But since Franny has already told him to move on, and that she just wants to be friends - we are assuming that Fric will never find peace in his heart with Franny. And that is truly sad.
As for our heroine, she left his house a complete wreck. She couldn’t breathe, tears were marring her vision, it was quite the site. The thing is, is that Frac feels like a big stupid idiot. Especially since she JUST SAID she didn’t want to see him anymore. And especially because SHE KNEW from day one that this exact thing was going to happen. Frac remembers asking Fric if he would honestly want to get into another relationship after he JUST got out of such a big one. And she remembers Fric saying “yes, if we lived near eachother, and started dating exclusively long term, that’s what I’d want”. If Frac could only learn to trust her instincts.
The worst part is that she always falls for this exact same guy. The guy who is hung up on his ex and can’t give her 100%. Fric is the 4th boy in a row, in this exact same situation. And she’s only dated 5 of these scum bags. We wonder what is wrong with Frac. It’s clearly something serious. Pray for her.
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